I’ve finally quit putting it off and made an appointment with a spinal specialist. I still need some tests to figure out if I need back surgery right now or if we can put it off a bit longer.
The appointment is tomorrow. Truthfully, I’m a bit scared. I don’t want to hear that I need surgery. I don’t want to hear that I have permanent damage or long-lasting problems or a future filled with back issues.
What I want is to continue in blissful ignorance, deluding myself into thinking that I’m well. Unfortunately, with the way things are at work, the smart thing to do is to get my health settled while I still have insurance.
I’m trying to be smart.